"Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today."
- James Dean
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I realised very recently that life's too short and we only get one shot at this.
That was when I decided to cut loose so many things that weren't necessary and that were making me unhappy. I'd done it before but never to the same extent and a huge example of this was further education.
I passed my GCSEs fairly well in June 2012 and, in September of the same year, I started my AS Levels at Sixth Form. I studied Government & Politics, Law, English Literature and ICT.
And I hated it.
So, after having passed two AS Levels and sticking it out for a year, I decided it was time for a change.
Over that summer, I planned to do an ICT Apprenticeship at the local college. I was very excited to go and I think I might have actually done that if the people who ran it were more competent.
But they were not.
And so I was left to find something else to do, constantly telling myself "This is your last chance. Don't screw it up again."
So I found another ICT course in the same college and hoped that things would be different.
I started it in September 2013 and, for the first time since I had left my upper school, I realised that I had found something that made me happy. I enjoyed the course greatly... for a few weeks and, by the end of half a term, I was ready to leave again.
No doubt you're all sighing by now and, to be honest, I don't blame you. I've started rambling and I'm sorry for that.
But I've finally reached the important part of the story!
*muffled groans and mutters of "Get to the point, idiot!" resound in the distance*
At the moment, I am currently in the process of being interviewed for a number of apprenticeships that have nothing to do with ICT or anything that held me back before.
I feel like this might be finally what I was looking for. I get a fresh new start where I won't know anyone at all (yikes but... sort of... yay!) and I'll have the money to keep me motivated when all else fails!
(Ignore that, readers. I'm lovely and money doesn't influence me in the slightest. Honest.)
But yes.
I decided recently that there was absolutely no point in staying in a place that made me so stressed and upset that panic attacks were an almost daily occurrence. That would be utterly ridiculous and so detrimental to my health.
So I guess what I'm trying to say is that, if you're in a bad relationship or place or anything at all really, and if you have the power to cut away the things that are making you unhappy and find something that will be good for you, then you should.
You really, really should.
Just remember, as James Dean says, "Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today."
Life's too short.
Don't waste time doing something you'll regret.
Lots of love,
K
xxxx